I ended up working 12 hours instead of 6. Why you may ask? There was an "incident" at work with one of the clients and one of the staff and the staff member had to go to the hospital. No, it wasn't anything serious, but I was asked if I could stay. So me being the oh so nice person I am said sure. The only problem was that I didn't sleep much the night before and that I was going to go to take a long nap when I got home. Oh well. I'll appreciate the extra money I'm sure. It's pretty relaxing work, even with the drama that happened today. The weather today was kind of crappy so we watched a bunch of movies. I've never seen so many Muppet Movies in such a short period ever. We watched 3 different Muppet Movies. One of the movies we even watched twice, A Muppet Christmas Carol. I'm sure you're jealous of my day :) I have to decide if I want to work next weekend or not. I'm starting orientation for my teaching job next week, so I'm not sure if I'll want to work on the weekend after that. We'll see. Once again, the money would be nice.

I'm so exhausted, but I can't sleep for the life of me. Unfortunately, I agreed to work from 9:00 am to 3:00 pm tomorrow. I know in my last entry I said I wasn't going to work for the temp agency anymore, but I couldn't say no to the lady today. It won't be much money, but hey...it's better than nothing. I'll forget about the money and it will show up in a couple weeks as a surprise. I'll buy myself something pretty or something. Actually it will probably show up before school starts, so I'll buy some professional clothes with it. It sucks getting old and having to be responsible with your money. What ever happened to the days of spending all your money at the mall and having nothing really to show for it except for toys from Spencers and some crappy trendy clothes? Ahhh, to be young and dumb again :)

I'm really anxious to start my orientation for work next week. I want to know what grades I'm teaching! I can't believe that orientation lasts two weeks though. What can they do for two weeks? That's ok I'll practice on my daydreaming skills. Let's think... Hawaii with a hot man that is madly in love with me. hmmmm, sounds good to me.

I've been blowing off working for the temp agency. I love the work, but sometimes what they want is crazy. Last weekend they wanted me to go to some city thats like 45 minutes away (and there are tons of other temp workers that live closer than I do). I would normally go, but now that I have a full time job starting I can be a little more picky. Today they called and wanted me to work for 4 hours on Saturday. Four hours?! That's sure a short shift, considering the place they want me to work is a half hour away. I think they're giving me these weird shifts because I never used to say no (I was so poor this summer, and I needed all the money I could get). After gas and taxes I would make around 20 bucks. Not really worth it if you ask me.

Hopefully tomorrow I'll get to hang out with a friend that moved away after school ended. Oh how I miss her. I need some fun! After graduation, all my good friends ended up moving and I haven't really met any new friends since then. I'm too shy. Hopefully I'll meet some hip, young people through work *crosses fingers*, but how many hip, young teachers are there out there (besides me of course j/k). Now that I know that I'll be in this area for at least another year, I really need to go out and make some new friends. I just have to get over that darn shyness, which is easier said then done.



P.S. It's interesting how you attach memories with songs. This song definitely reminds me of one of the many times my ex and I broke up.

So a lot has happened since the last time I updated. My boyfriend and I did end up breaking up. I got close with my friend who ended up coming to visit, but then he turned a little weird on me. So I've been through 2 guys in the last couple months. Never get involved with a guy who is in love with a chick he's never had a chance with. It's bad news. I do feel bad for him though. He's never really had a serious girlfriend, and probably won't if he keeps up like this. But, I'm glad I didn't get too involved with him. I just hate the mixed signals. He's worse than a chick!

Moving on.... As I stated in the past, I really wanted to move back to California. However, this didn't happened. I got offered a teaching position out here, so I took it. I think it's going to work out a-ok for me. I'm the happiest I've been in months. I'm no longer in a slump. Currently there are no men in my life, and that's probably a good thing. I don't really have the best taste in men. I'm going to try to post more often. I like being able to look back at my livejournal and see what happened in the past. I also started a teaching lj as well. I may post it here sometime. There's not much in it as of now since the school year hasn't started yet. Anyway, I hope all is well in lj land :)

I think my boyfriend and I are breaing up this weekend. Wonderful, huh? Honestly, some things happened to make me question his character. No, he didn't cheat on me. It's just as hurtful though. MEN! I wrote something about our trip together when I got home that weekend, and I ended up reading it. "I think I'm falling in love" blah blah blah. I'm so naive! I was talking to a friend last night who really helped me. He basically said I was a smart person, except when it comes to men. I tend to follow my heart and not my head. Maybe one shouldn't always follow one's head, but sometimes it might just be worth it.

Next on my update list, I'm working for a temp agency that specializes in human services. My first day is Sunday. I'm excited. I'm so poor at this moment in time. The only thing about working with this agency, is that the hours aren't guaranteed. I need to keep calling about hours and such. But hey, I just need enough for rent, gas, and a little food. I think I'll be fine.


Moving: I want to do it. Western Mass isn't my thing. Hopefully I find some job opportunities that will take me out of the area. Hopefully, it will take me back to California. Cue song: "I'm goin' goin' back to back to cali cali" haha Oh how I amuse myself...

I always seem to fall for people so far away. It's always so wonderful at first, but then the reality of distance gets to me. Honestly, it's not so bad if you talk to your S.0., but I haven't really talked to mine much lately. Meaning like 20 minutes at the MAX this week. It's frustrating. I've had a lot of crazy things go on this week too, and he has no clue.

There's another boy I know that is being VERRRRRRRRRRRRY very very sweet to me lately. Why is it when you're dating someone you get hit on like mad? Oh the irony. It is flattering though.

Other updates:
My computer is being a bitch lately.
I *think* my car is fixed.
It's supposed to be insanely hot this weekend, eeks.
I'm poor, and need a job. I do have an interview at the temp agency next week though.
Western Massachusetts still sucks.
I crave peanut butter all the time nowadays. Maybe I'm pregnant j/k

I forgot my password and I was too lazy to look it up until now. My life has been a mixture of wonderful and shitty lately. My love life is WONDERFUL. However, my job situation is getting very stressful. I'm doing all I can. I'm sure I'll find something...eventually. Stupid economy. Teachers are being laid off left and right. No wonder there are no jobs around here.

I wish the boyfriend was closer rather than 400 miles away. However, I well see him in less then two weeks. I miss him terribly. I'm so lucky to have found a great friend and boyfriend in one. We better not fuck it up this time lol I'm ready to settle down. Am I too young to feel like that? I'm 24...ready for that next step in life. I guess I just want some stability (something I never really had hen I was a child).

As seen on a bag of baby carrots:

Ingredients: Carrots

No way!

I think I'm falling in love. And no, it isn't because of just one weekend. It is because of 5 years. He, the boy, is absolutely amazing in every way. I have never felt so special in my life. The way that he looks at me makes me melt. I'm falling, big time. We stayed in the beautiful Park Plaza Hotel in Boston this weekend and had many romantic little dates. It felt like we have been together for ages. It just seemed so right. I have never felt anything so intense in my life. I'm falling for this boy hard and fast. I think he's falling hard and fast too. I honestly think that he may be the one.... I'm so fucking happy right now even though I have yet to find a summer or fall job. Fuck that. I'm falling in love... :)

I'm going to Boston tomorrow today to meet up with the boy. AHHHHHHHHHHH! I'm excited, nervous, and anxious all in one. I'm going to drive myself crazy. I can't believe all this is happening! I'm going to try to go into this weekend without any expectations that way I'm not let down. I just miss the boy as a friend, let alone as anything else. Nonetheless I think I'll have a blast this weekend. Now if only time would speed up. I'll let you all know how it went on Sunday.

I grew up in a place that the average temp was about 55 degrees all year round. Now I'm living in Western Mass where there are actually seasons. Today the high was about 90 and a little humid as well. To me this is fucking hot. Of course we don't have air conditioning. I know I'll get used to the hotness. I did last summer. It just kind of snuck up on me. Where is spring?! We never really got a nice spring. May was actually pretty cool (in the 40s and 50s). I'd like some middle ground here!

New update on my love life. I'm going away with the guy next weekend to Boston. From there I guess it's really sink or swim. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. It's funny, when you're not looking for a boyfriend 10 come strolling along. I just hope things work out this time so I won't have to kick any ass :)

So my heart and my head had a fight. Guess who won? My heart. I really don't want to get involved right now, but I am involved. It's weird how things happen so quickly. We're just casually dating right now, but I know soon that will change. I'm a little nervous. I just don't want to get hurt again. But then again, you can't find love if you keep running away from every person of the opposite sex because you don't want to get hurt. I'm just scared because this guy has always had this magical hold over me. I thought I was over him, but obviously I wasn't. Our personalities are just so compatible, it's scary. I've never been able to talk to some one as much as I can talk to him. I never get tired of talking to him, and believe me we've talked for hours upon hours. I think our longest conversation has been over 8 hours. I don't get it. I don't get why we're so attracted to each other. Maybe I shouldn't care. Maybe I shouldn't think about it. I analyze everything until I drive myself crazy. I just need to relax and let things happen.

Men are evil because they know how to get to a woman. Lines line " I miss us. You complete me" being spoken with 100% sincerity really get to a girl. I must stay strong, but I can already see myself falling. Fuck. I don't know what to do to. I could not talk to him, but I want to talk to him. I want things but I don't. I wish I could just shut my mind off and let things happen. It's going to be a longgggggggggg night tonight.

My love life is making my head hurt. I broke up with my boyfriend almost a month ago, and I've been so busy that I haven't had time to really deal with it emotionally until now. I've had another guy try to woo me, which was nice but something I'm not really ready for. Now another ex of mine wants to try things again. AHHHHHHHHHHHH! I can't deal with this all at once. Too much drama. I really thought I didn't feel anything for this ex anymore, but I was wrong. I hate this! Too much emotional drama at once. Argh, I just don't know what to think.

I've been sort of busy for the last week or so. I graduated! YAY! I had my family in town, and finally got rid of the last family members. Went to Cape Cod and touched the Atlantic Ocean for the first time. I still haven't had a chance to sleep 14 hours straight. I'll do that soon. The next big thing for me is to find a summer and fall job. That's kind of scary. Anyone want to hirer me? No? Didn't think so =P

Your brain: 140% interpersonal, 60% visual, 100% verbal, and 100% mathematical!

Congratulations on being 400% smart! Actually, on my test, everyone is. The above score breaks down what kind of thinking you most enjoy doing. A score above 100% means you use that kind of thinking more than average, and a score below 100% means you use it less. It says nothing about how good you are at any one, just how interested you are in each, relatively. A substantial difference in scores between two people means, conclusively, that they are different kinds of thinkers. Matching Summary: Each of us has different tastes. Still, I offer the following advice, which I think is obvious: Don't date someone if your interpersonal percentages differ by more than 80%. Don't be friends with someone if your verbal percentages differ by more than 100%. Don't have sex with someone if their math percentage is over 200%.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 92% on interpersonal You scored higher than 48% on visual You scored higher than 78% on verbal You scored higher than 61% on mathematical

Link: The 4-Variable IQ Test written by chriscoyne on Ok Cupid

Part of me wishes that my ex would call me and tell me that he's a bitch and that he's sorry. But, I know that it isn't going to happen, so I'm glad I broke up with him. It just sucks that I still love him.

There's a new guy in my life...sort of. Let me explain. There's a new guy that wants to be in my life. He's an old semi-friend of mine who has been really friendly since I broke up with my boyfriend. He's called every night for the past week. I guess I sort of enjoy the attention. He's a nice guy, but I'm just not ready for something right now (and I have told him this many times). He says that is fine, but I wonder if he thinks he will get his way in the end. Who knows. I'm just not in a rush to get emotionally involved with a guy again.

In other news, I graduate on Saturday! Woohoo :)

Sorry for the lack of updating. I've had some major drama in my life. I'm doing fairly well though now. Go me! Let's see... everything in the world is due on Tuesday for me. I have a few big projects that I need to really get cracking on and try to finish before Monday (hopefully). My family is going insane at the moment 3000 miles away (hard to explain). I also broke up with my boyfriend. Oh the joy.... I have a one track mind right now, and that is school. I need to get this stuff finished so I can relax once and for all.

There's another guy in my life trying to woo me at the moment. I'm not sure how I feel about that. It's flattering, but I don't think I'm ready for anything like that right now. Hopefully I don't fall into his trap. I'm just so disapointed in the male species right now. I have been dating my ex off and on (mostly on) for about 7 years. I genuinely loved him with all my heart, but I wonder if he really knows what love is. He needs to find himself and grow up. I wish him the best in life, but honestly I don't think I ever want him in my life again (as a friend or otherwise). I need to move on.

I've been trying to work all day, but I haven't been that successful. I think I'll meet my goal for tonight though if I stop goofing around on the internet. I have 10 more days until everything is due. I'm graduating on the 21st of May. This is so scary. I'm going to have to find a job and become an...adult! I'm kind of worried about finding a Summer job. I can't afford to live without one. I'd do almost anything though, so I think it will be ok *crosses fingers* Anyone want to be my sugar daddy/mama for the summer? (totally kidding...)

First graders are too cute sometimes. This one girl in my class came up to me with a shit eating grin proclaimed to me that she loved someone. She eventually told me who the boy was (a boy in our class). She told me that red heads are cute. Heck yes, we are! But I digress... It's so funny how young kids talk about love. It's so misguided, but so sweet an innocent at the same time. Ahhh how I love kids....